Insomnia!

Life is difficult,

I don't know what's happening with me, but really I'm feeling so bad and so lonely those days. It's true that I have a lot of good friends and I love them so much, but last days I feel isolated from the atmosphere.

I laugh when I'm next to my friend and I enjoy time with them, but really my laughs are like the crocodile's tears. I mean that I just try to chuckle in front of my friends, but I feel bad inside. I'm not lying here or trying to write an ordinary text that teacher ask about, but I'm telling you about what I'm feeling that hurt me, and become like obstacles in my social and educational life.

Yesterday, me and the Arab guys in the dorm made a barbecue party in the garden in the back of our dorm, really it was fantastic but when we finished it and I return to my room I feel again lonely and isolated. Saturday also I had a small party with my relatives, and I spent a funny time by playing Turk Scrabble and driving to Kocaeli where my relatives stay, but I still feeling lonely. Since more than 9 days, I cannot sleep and today I stayed until 6 o'clock not because I was playing Fifa 2011 on the PS or chatting with friends on the Facebook but it was only to sleep. I spend more 4 hours on my bed, thinking and thinking without any sense. I talked to my mother this morning on the phone, and I tried to tell here what insomnia I'm passing but she used to talk as usual positively and tried to keep me good. She said that what I'm facing is only because I'm not near to them but it's not my first year far from the family, it's more than 6 years. I do not have any social problems and maybe I had some bad love experiences. Maybe it's because of that, or maybe because I just started a new life between school and association works, and struggling to start again my job.
I believe that I will gain this ''war'', but I don't know If I have the power to fight so far.

◊ AGENDA ◊ 

Higher or lower!

   In a materialistic world, people became only sculptures, likeness that hasn't any respiration. And those status symbols differ us to high and low, like a merchandise. It's true that status symbols have been existed for many thousand years but really their based on principles had been changed in the 21st century. Before, in the Arab world, having a large collection of books was considered a status symbol and also pearls and jade were also major status symbols. But now, having money or wealth and things that can be bought by wealth, such as cars, houses, or fine clothing, are considered status symbols, I mean that what is considered as a status symbols nowadays is only thing related to money and wealth. Status symbols are different from a culture to an other, for example, in my country -Morocco- large house in the seaside, a Mercedes-Benz luxury sedan and a trophy wife are considered the main status symbols or also as an example the usage of cellphones in Istanbul is considered as a status symbols.

So really those status symbols change from a culture to an other, from a country to an other but they have only one common characteristic is that they are all related to money and wealth, and this keep us very far from each others, because everyone is trying to show off what he has.
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◊ IDEAS ◊

Answering teacher's question!

related to Reflective learning - what is reflective learning page 27

Lastly I just learned new vocabulary and new language that can help me abundantly in my exams at faculty and also in general communication. Answering the second question about what factors helped me to learn, I can say that listening to English music, watching more English films without french or arabic subtitles helped me so much and also chatting with English spoken friends helped me so much to get this language and lexicon. Obviously I haven't any problem in writing a small essay or paragraphs at the moment, and I get much better grads in the school tests. To consolidate and reinforce this learning I have to do what I have doing since 7 months, I mean listening to music and watching movies, and I also have to start reading novels and romans, also I have to check every night for class assignments and home works and revise my later lessons and try to speak a new language with formal expressions and clear pronunciation.

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